Suicide post

Bismillah, 

Recently, i have been burden with so many things in my head. I could not even have someone to share it with. Or, i, myself have a problem to share it with others. I am so insecure and i cannot trust anyone.

With the burden piling up. I am so in distress. Right now i am feeling that i want to commit suicide. But, i still have a little sense left in me to hold me back. 

I feel like i want to cry but i am not the crying-type of person in front of others. The only time i feel like crying is only on sajadah during dawn. Im making a fool of myself.

I hope that i can cope with this problems. Pray for me friends. Salam :'(

Enjoying single life

Disagree - Crumbs. 

Someone please listen to this song. It tells me what i feel right now. 

Big world.

Say he wants to see the light for once.

Well maybe if you try.

It's so sad.

Babe don't look so sad. 

I've got it wrong today.

And if she doesn't go your way.

Look up to blue skies, say hey.

It's okay.

It's okay.

:'(

Syok sendiri

Salam,

Such a cold weather in rainy season. Not just the temperature, but also human hearts. Well, not all, just some few. 

I have been trying to know a person very well. I just feel that the feeling ain't mutual. Again, i don't want to involve in a relationship that my feelings are subsided and ignored. I just don't get it. Is it that i am too sensitive or i don't really deserve the mutual concerns over each other. 

Probably, i am a person with so too much EQ that it consumes me to pieces. I cared until at a point it breaks me. Such occassions happened more than once. It happened again. Selfishness has consumed mankind till love has not been permit to exist. I don't think i am sad. But, it just wretched my heart a little. 

Maybe, i need to stop doing what i am doing, and keep searching for the one... That understands the feel of a guy, who has been lonely and longing for his mutual understandings. 

I am going to have a nice breakfast in an hour or two. Who wants to join me? :3