Boys boys be my boy !

Usual Tuesday assembly. My urge to skip assembly is always there. Not to say that I am a rebellious guy or what. It's just the laziness that i cant resist. ITS NOT MY MIDDLE NAME BUT ITS MY LAST NAME! bAAHAAHAHA.

Do not be skeptical. I was not skipping the assembly, but i was one of the earliest to arrive. Hehe.

As usual, the assembly was boring to me because it is dull and deadening. The ho-hum struck so hard that i was cursing to myself. OMFG! How can i even curse to myself. YES! you can actually. It was on this one scene on the legendary movie called THE EXORCIST, where this little girl after she had been possessed by the demon she said

**** me, **** me! Your mother **** **** in hell.

Do not misinterpret this, i was not saying that to myself. It would be very wrong to have orgasm during the assembly. Haish :|

So i was trying to pay full attention whatever they were informing what so ever.

Surprisingly,what i found was that these people in the hall also not paying their full attention. So what is the purpose of the assembly? if you just want to show up, doing nothing and prevent yourself from punishment of being a latecomer. Those who were giving talks about motivation were keep blabbering to themselves.

Let me give you a piece of advice...

This isn’t even about motivation anymore. This is about showing everyone that you care about your college, and that you are responsible. Skipping assembly and did not paying attention are selfish motives, but doing so actually does nothing good for you. Selfishly, you actually want to come to assembly early on Tuesdays just to give everyone the impression that you are a very discipline person even if you aren’t!

Phew enough of ceramah already.

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Jest 2

Other people humiliation 1

This morning, i was late for morning class because everyone do not even bother to care about their retard-limping classmate that will has his knee operation in the near future. Sheep! They did not call or even mcg me where the class should be. How frustrating it was to know that you have these kind of friends.

Yet, this morning also when i was not in the mood, one of these bastards threw his pencil box at me during the role-play session. Yet, he was making this innocent face and not even apologize. Luckily, my knee still hurts otherwise i will be kicking his as**** so damn hard.

After the recess these bastards were talking about puberty and when they had it. Bodoo. The funny side was that one of the guys was even proud of himself for not having any relationship with girls. ITU NAMA DIA KAU LOOOOOOOOOOOOSERRRRRRR! and they were relating hitting on girls and puberty. ERKS!

BAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHA.

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I found out that the song BOYS by SMILE is so gay. I would love to see a bapok singing it instead of bogam. :) I still freshly remembered that he was singing If i were a boy by Beyonce. HAHAHAHA.

And all the boys

If you want feel the heat

Just come along and play with me

I'm just a girl who's looking for some fun

It's time to get things started

So come on everybody

Sorry about this very emo post. It is just for self-entertainment.

Adios mi amor :) laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

p/s; i have an ambition to produce a book about prophecies and predictions like what NOSTRADAMUS had. If you are interested to be my partner, just let me know. hehe.

The Changes ; symptoms

Thursday, exactly before the isya prayer; where people went to tadarus with their usrahs, F112 DESK 1.

I found something was not right with me. It has always been like that.
Since, my parents sent me to live with my grandparents during my childhood. The sour feeling of being left behind is not alien to me anymore. Where my childhood is different from others, living with parents under one roof, getting to know their own parents, going on holidays with parents where parents can buy alotsa toys to their children made me envied to every person.

• Health condition : terrible

Having had several bad coughs and dynamically awkward fever lately. The diarrhea and gastric attacks had annoyed me every hour. Runny nose becomes the main problem of my breathing difficulty. I was quite shocked when asked by Arab, a fellow classmate,

Weh, ko boleh bernafas guna berapa belah hidung.
2 lah. Aku selalu nafas guna satu belah aja. Oh yakah!
Camne nak cek? Ko hembus nafas guna hidung, cek guna jari tahan depan hidung.

Unluckily, me too can only exhale using only one of two holes of the nose(wonder ppl got 3 holes). Ahs, i had been admitted at the Seremban Hospital because of chest pain lately. Thanks to Iqmal for accompanying me.

• Peer pressure

Living in with people whom i never mingle with before makes my life miserable. I admit, i am a person that can makes a lot of friends but cannot be a good ones. Plus, i only hangs out with people with my own clique. Different ideas, different styles, different way of lives from other people always bounds me to mix with others. Sometimes, it is better this way because I can live my own life and they can live theirs as long as they are not disturbing mine.

But, unfortunately, i cannot live that kind of way. I had been given a heavy responsibility where a lot of commitments needed towards the people i barely know. I am the type who enjoys to do what i like and love. Yes, it is called sincerity. But, i am not always sincere. I do not know whether i am sincere enough to satisfy the needs of others because i am a total mess myself.

• Homesick

It is actually very hard for me to admit this. Yes,I am a homesick person. Before this, i had never lived more than 100km radius from home.Even though, i studied at a boarding school before, but it is just 15 minutes away from home. Gee, it is hard for me actually. Left alone stranded here, with no close friends that always let me stayed at their houses, no Kak Ema that always lend me a pair of helping hands when i am in troubles, no hanging outs with junkies.

Eventhough i am homesick but i tried my best not to leave from here.



* I do not know what i am turning into. Somebody out there, help me. Maybe i am in need of moral support. Or i am just not being grateful of what i have at this moment.

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