Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Old memory :)

den baru sahaja tgk okgo video goldberg mende tah agak stylo. tibo2 den rase banggo deh sbb dulu pon den penah buat video OKGO jugop. lols enjoy

special thanks to ALAM SHAH BROS, Lotfi Razak, Khairul Asyraf Yusof, Wafiuddin Ahmad. good old memory guys. hehe

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Mr Manager

My life has been a real mess recently. I am still losing more and more conscience. But, that's life. Yesterday you are good. Now, you slowly turn into something else. Change is ultimately constant.

I have quite a few problems that still unsolved. Part of my brain is working it out. There are also issues that are certainly, arousing and complex. Like, the correlation between human's lives and people expectations. Human's judgement on others. Escapism from reality; NEUTRALITY.

Yesterday, I met a good friend. He was an athlete. He had knee surgery the same as mine. I looked into his eyes, I saw bitterness. The same as mine. Although, he is recovering, and still can play whatever sports he wants to, but it will never be the same like old days. Fate is not an option. Its part of Qada and Qadar. Everyday is related to it.

Making decisions is one of my bad criteria. I accept it. Why won't you. People is never the same. Sometimes, i make decisions based on my hunch. It's just a mere instinct. Give me facts, give me reasons, give me logic, still, i used hunch. I need to make a personal experimentation on the correlation of success with hunch decisions so that I won't make the same mistakes.

Been observing few friends are blogging. Congratulations.

I noticed, people express their thoughts negatively. I'm still thinking what are their intentions. I assume that they are plainly stupid on how to manage thoughts. KEEP IT TO YOURSELVES and THINK FIRST. DONT BLINDLY SAY IT.

Yes, im thinking to have another post in the future, INSYALLAH.


P/S: I'm sorry for ruining everything including your life.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Bad mood

So, i am really sad right now. :(

Perhaps, even more than sad. I don't know what to do at the moment.

It is not me in the bad mood, don't get the wrong idea.

Sometimes, i don't know what i did that hurt others especially loved ones.

I try to treat everyone nicely, but i still hurt of what everyone did to me. I did many things to make people happy, i did it sincerely. But, i feel people don't appreciate what i do to them.

People can bully me around, people can do what they want on me, people can use me as much as they want, but they do not understands my feelings.

I don't understand a really small matter can turns into a big fight. i don't understand why people mix their emotion with their judgment.

What I really understand is that Allah has planned this for me. I need to be more patient. I don't blame anyone, i would rather to admit all of it my mistakes. I hope Allah sees my hardships, and he grants me rewards in the afterlife.

I didn't expect this to happen when you have plan all things perfectly, i already start to imagine all the nice things. Suddenly, someone turn into a heartless monster, rip apart your nice emotions.

That's how i feel right now.

Sorry for the emotional post, i don't know who to express my feelings anymore. I am extremely sad.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Glade, how refreshing.

Hello, im back!

After two years of struggling, I am now absolutely clueless, what to do now!!!!!

I seriously do not know what to talk about..........


hmm, a lot of strange things had happened to me these past two years. I am grateful to Allah because i am still alive and kicking :)

There are so much to share, but i dont know whether i would like to share them all. Probably, i would rather keep it inside than sharing. But, there's no fun in that. So, readers, expect the unexpected. MUAH!

I am still in the journey, to find an absolute answer for my absolute question, to complete myself with virtues, and to find happiness.

I hate to suffer but I believe Allah's decisions in everything that had happened to me are boulders that i have to move with my own arms. That's Life. and one thing for sure, change is constant. Be happy, or suffer with what u have.

I learned so much, and i believe there are so many things that i do not know. One thing for sure, I want to learn more. But i need motivation and physical strength to carry on. Ya Allah give me strength and guidance to learn the true knowledge from you.

Lastly, I am happy to know a lot of people. Friends, i am sorry for my mistakes, I know there are a lot of it. I am a man with a weird ego. Deep inside, I always for the best to you all. Sorry again.

Hope to see you guys in the next post. Cheerio. ;)

Back again,
Kamal Lazi