So, i am really sad right now. :(
Perhaps, even more than sad. I don't know what to do at the moment.
It is not me in the bad mood, don't get the wrong idea.
Sometimes, i don't know what i did that hurt others especially loved ones.
I try to treat everyone nicely, but i still hurt of what everyone did to me. I did many things to make people happy, i did it sincerely. But, i feel people don't appreciate what i do to them.
People can bully me around, people can do what they want on me, people can use me as much as they want, but they do not understands my feelings.
I don't understand a really small matter can turns into a big fight. i don't understand why people mix their emotion with their judgment.
What I really understand is that Allah has planned this for me. I need to be more patient. I don't blame anyone, i would rather to admit all of it my mistakes. I hope Allah sees my hardships, and he grants me rewards in the afterlife.
I didn't expect this to happen when you have plan all things perfectly, i already start to imagine all the nice things. Suddenly, someone turn into a heartless monster, rip apart your nice emotions.
That's how i feel right now.
Sorry for the emotional post, i don't know who to express my feelings anymore. I am extremely sad.