Thursday, exactly before the isya prayer; where people went to tadarus with their usrahs, F112 DESK 1.
I found something was not right with me. It has always been like that.
Since, my parents sent me to live with my grandparents during my childhood. The sour feeling of being left behind is not alien to me anymore. Where my childhood is different from others, living with parents under one roof, getting to know their own parents, going on holidays with parents where parents can buy alotsa toys to their children made me envied to every person.
- Health condition : terrible
Weh, ko boleh bernafas guna berapa belah hidung.Unluckily, me too can only exhale using only one of two holes of the nose(wonder ppl got 3 holes). Ahs, i had been admitted at the Seremban Hospital because of chest pain lately. Thanks to Iqmal for accompanying me.
2 lah. Aku selalu nafas guna satu belah aja. Oh yakah!
Camne nak cek? Ko hembus nafas guna hidung, cek guna jari tahan depan hidung.
- Peer pressure
But, unfortunately, i cannot live that kind of way. I had been given a heavy responsibility where a lot of commitments needed towards the people i barely know. I am the type who enjoys to do what i like and love. Yes, it is called sincerity. But, i am not always sincere. I do not know whether i am sincere enough to satisfy the needs of others because i am a total mess myself.
Eventhough i am homesick but i tried my best not to leave from here.
* I do not know what i am turning into. Somebody out there, help me. Maybe i am in need of moral support. Or i am just not being grateful of what i have at this moment.