Ramadan is today

Bismillah.

Salam ramadan people. I don't know how to express my feeling on this blessful month except that iam feeling a little bit glee and blissful. I am looking forward on coming days of Ramadan. 

I still remember on the 2nd day of ramadan last year, my ankle got sprained in front of masjid. I missed teraweh most of it last year. So, to make up to ramadan last year, i am setting my goal that i am going to teraweh every night for this whole month. :) InshaAllah if Allah permits.

I am looking positively to change my attitudes and most of all tonget the benefits of ramadan. I hope that i got a lot of pahalas this month when doing dah sincerely.

Pray to me guys. InshaAllah we will get this through togeher. Amin.

Salam and bye.

Letting go

I am officially letting go the dearest person that ever touched my heart and soul. Thank you for everything. I wont ever forget you for the rest of my life. 

I love you forever. :')

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Tomorrow.

Bismillah.

Im a bit nervous for tomorrow. Still have half a day before exam. I dont know whether im prepared or not. I want to do well in this exam. Quite have a high hope in this one. But then again, im nervous as hell. 

I just realised when im on this para, that, everythng will be decided by Allah. Even how many efforts i put on the  subject itself the only one who determines that how much i can understand and how well i can perform for tomorrow paper is only Him. The only thing i can do is Tawakal. Istill have time to do my last revision. I do hope doing past years MTFs will help me so that i can remember what i learn. 

At this hour, i do really hope that someone will accompany me and listen to my annoying feelings of insecurities. I am really regretful that before this i did have someone to care for me. :'( 

Till another time. Pray for me. Salam. 

Suicide post

Bismillah, 

Recently, i have been burden with so many things in my head. I could not even have someone to share it with. Or, i, myself have a problem to share it with others. I am so insecure and i cannot trust anyone.

With the burden piling up. I am so in distress. Right now i am feeling that i want to commit suicide. But, i still have a little sense left in me to hold me back. 

I feel like i want to cry but i am not the crying-type of person in front of others. The only time i feel like crying is only on sajadah during dawn. Im making a fool of myself.

I hope that i can cope with this problems. Pray for me friends. Salam :'(