Bad mood

So, i am really sad right now. :(

Perhaps, even more than sad. I don't know what to do at the moment.

It is not me in the bad mood, don't get the wrong idea.

Sometimes, i don't know what i did that hurt others especially loved ones.

I try to treat everyone nicely, but i still hurt of what everyone did to me. I did many things to make people happy, i did it sincerely. But, i feel people don't appreciate what i do to them.

People can bully me around, people can do what they want on me, people can use me as much as they want, but they do not understands my feelings.

I don't understand a really small matter can turns into a big fight. i don't understand why people mix their emotion with their judgment.

What I really understand is that Allah has planned this for me. I need to be more patient. I don't blame anyone, i would rather to admit all of it my mistakes. I hope Allah sees my hardships, and he grants me rewards in the afterlife.

I didn't expect this to happen when you have plan all things perfectly, i already start to imagine all the nice things. Suddenly, someone turn into a heartless monster, rip apart your nice emotions.

That's how i feel right now.

Sorry for the emotional post, i don't know who to express my feelings anymore. I am extremely sad.

Glade, how refreshing.

Hello, im back!

After two years of struggling, I am now absolutely clueless, what to do now!!!!!

I seriously do not know what to talk about..........

OK!

hmm, a lot of strange things had happened to me these past two years. I am grateful to Allah because i am still alive and kicking :)

There are so much to share, but i dont know whether i would like to share them all. Probably, i would rather keep it inside than sharing. But, there's no fun in that. So, readers, expect the unexpected. MUAH!

I am still in the journey, to find an absolute answer for my absolute question, to complete myself with virtues, and to find happiness.

I hate to suffer but I believe Allah's decisions in everything that had happened to me are boulders that i have to move with my own arms. That's Life. and one thing for sure, change is constant. Be happy, or suffer with what u have.

I learned so much, and i believe there are so many things that i do not know. One thing for sure, I want to learn more. But i need motivation and physical strength to carry on. Ya Allah give me strength and guidance to learn the true knowledge from you.

Lastly, I am happy to know a lot of people. Friends, i am sorry for my mistakes, I know there are a lot of it. I am a man with a weird ego. Deep inside, I always for the best to you all. Sorry again.

Hope to see you guys in the next post. Cheerio. ;)

Back again,

Kamal Lazi

:)

I have nothing to tell this morning. Just to update about my condition.

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Alhamdulilah, the surgery went well. Started at 4 pm and finished around maghrib. Then I woke up and still "mamai" at one a.m.

My right leg still hurts like hell. But i am so happy my worst nightmare has ended. :)

So peeps if you want to visit me, just come at anytime at Hospital Pusrawi, Jalan Tun Razak.

Wad Assalam, level 5, Room 7.

No worries, my room is single bed. Takde orang lain pon kalau nk gelak gile2. lol.

Datang lah teman, im all alone here. Probably kalau cepat baik hari isnin boleh ciao. T_T nak tengok world cup dekat rumaaaah!

I think i stop here.

Adios mi amor :)

Boringnya duduksorang2 :P